self oppression is dehumanizing/desensitizing/depressingand slightly masochistic. an entire life is spent moving forward towards the human being that each person aspires to become. but there's always that tiny voice in your head whispering that you cant do it and then its telling you that you wont do it and then finally screaming that there is absolutely no chance that things will ever work out for you. no chance, no hope.
the sick part is that point when you start to listening; subconciously agreeing, almost enouraging these ever so welcome cynisms. you begin to actually believe the lies it's feeding you and all of your hard work and aspirations are meaningless, the foundation that you've built your life upon begins to crumble and the regression commences.
you begin to unknowing destroy all the things you've ever worked for. anything and everything. family ties-cut. life long friendships-broken. you have no one to care for so you think in return no one cares for you. you start letting yourself go. stop going to work. stop sleeping or maybe you never wake up. until it gets to the point where you even stop feeding yourself; as if cereal in a bowl is too strenuous.
now this tiny voice in the back of your mind has become a life shattering concious decision. you cant do it. you wont do it. and there is absolutely no chance that things could ever work out for you now. no chance, you've lost hope.
Self doubt is a pitious and devauling thing, however it is also fleeting. how your life unfolds depends entirely upon yourself, you cant blame your failures and short comings on that tiny voice in your head, because who in their right mind would accept that as a valid reason. No one should accept that as a valid reason.
Don't ever take your self for granted, there are so many wonderful and talented people in the world who let that one moment of doubt turn into a life time of self oppression; the easiest and hardest to fix. dont do it, dont be that person who completely lacks self confidence even if they happen to be the most brilliant and admirable person in the world. I really believe its time for every one to stop feeling this lull in their life, that feeling of malcontent; everyone feels, but only some people overcome it, instead of allowing it to overcome them.
2 comments:
Entirely too many large words used here.
On the whole, though, quite thought-provoking nicole.
thank you,it was meant to be thought provoking since i was in a very pensive mood.
large words are my best friend. there can never be too many. especially when they all have very similar meanings aha
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